The First Time Lyrics

I put on my make up, spray my perfume
Sat on the front porch, waitin' on you
Said we would catch up cause it had been a while
I hate to admit it, but my hands are shaking
Barely breathin', heart is racin'
Looks like feelings don't always change their minds
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But you never called, never showed up
Guess some things never change
And just like living in a flashback
You let me down again

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sittin' here looking at the driveway
Is just tearin' my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye
The first time

I should know better, I hate that I still cry
Lookin' like a fool here watchin' for headlights
And kickin' myself for believin' in you again
Oh, I bet you're out drinkin' with a new blonde
And telling her whatever's playin' is her song
Yeah and helping her up into your Chevy instead

Even when you don't have me
You can still be the one to hurt me
It must feel good to know
That I'm still holding on to letting go

That's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sittin' here looking at the driveway
Is just tearin' my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye
The first time

Yeah that's why the past should be the past
Far behind, back of mind, out of the way
Let the memories burn and crash
Cause sittin' here looking at this driveway
Is just tearin' my heart back in half
Like nothing's changed except the time that's passed
And that's why goodbye should mean goodbye
So now I'm letting you go, just like I should have tried
The first time
Oh, the first time

Yeah that's why the past should be the past
The first time