This Time Lyrics

I've been practicing all day
Now the words I meant to say are gone
I promised that I wouldn't cry
Told myself I had to try and hold on
The truth, I lied
I hate myself inside
And why
I played the game and paid the price
I never look back
I never cry never try to wonder why
I'll be on my own
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And never doubt, never shout or wonder how
I'll never be lonely until
This time, this time, this time
This time I will
I've been wide awake all night
There's no sign of sleep inside my mind
The headlight shadows scan my wall
I convince myself you'll call in time
The truth, I lied
The girl in me has died
And why
I played the game and paid the price
I never look back...
This time I will be yours completely
This time I'll make sure you don't hate me
This time I know, this time I can and this time I will
I never look back...
I've been practicing all day
Now the words I meant to say are gone.